feelings..

i hate to say no to a confession...
bt i bet its too hard for me to say yes either..
you are my good fren that i dnt want to lss

why dnt u understnd tht wht u r tryng to do will spoil everythng..
pls.mayb im not the one..u should understand wat im tryng to do whn i act stupid..
pls dnt do this..

its not my rite to stop u..
bt if u care for me..
jst stop ur mind frm thnkng of such a thng..

i'm urs mummy..

mummy i luv u more thn anythng..
u r my heartbeat...
Allah..pls give her happiness..
i luv u mummy for..

all ur luv 4 me

all ur spprt

all d shoppng

all d kisses

all d moment we cried 2gthr

all d smile u gave to me

all d hug u gave me

all ur 9 mnths sffrng my kick

all ur moment delivering me

all ur life listeng to me..althgh i dnt make sense(only during pms)

all urlife

being my mummy...

khan

ive never ever felt so proud of the name before..
my dad use to say tht we r d pathan..smthng like respectv ppl..haha
we used to make fun of it..
the funniest is when dr hikmatullah actually mentioned about the habit of copying among the pathan..and fortunately he admired them 4 that...

still..thts nt the sbject mttr now..
its the khan..
well..its a tremor whenever dr bahar mentioned Miss khan..however..it gave me the feeling of remembering my root and responsibilities im holding..
well never imagine of it until i watch my name is khan...
its a fantastic movie..and i guess its the best from karan johar..
ive always admired Shah rukh khan..
however i must say the movie itself was good..
the narration was very much realistic..
its the best part when he stress on the world is made of two group of people..
good and bad..
i guess its the basis of all religion aspecially Islam..
As a muslim..we shld do good and leave evil..the concept is there..
Islam is not about force..its solely on intention and love..
Khan is definitely a big name with a big meaning..
i'm glad that this movie signifies the meaning of it and yes the most important part is that..
just because of having a khan in your name..its does not connote violency and hatred..
it signifies purely name, dignity, and ur existence in this stage of Allah s.w.t..

im proudly saying that im a KHAN...

editing work...

hye there..
i just dnt knw why is it so hard to edit the gramatical error i've made in my previous post...
so i would like to say im sorry for the mistake n believe me it was done out of excitement of sharing my story with others...
hope u ppl like it..well its kind of therapy for me..telling my feeling to this screen infront of me..just as if sm1 is listng...
tq ppl..

pain killer

Allah is always fair..
whenever he gave pain..
he provide pain killer as well...
i had mine today...infact i had it overdose(im nt sure abt the spelling..)

the firt dose was when my mom woke mu up with her smile...show me that she supported me in all way...after what happen yesterday..it was not easy for me to act normal...my family understand..
the second dose when i received sms frm yas..its a call 4 masjid india...very unislamically u can say a worldly heaven..bt its hot..haha
we when there..b4 tht i had my routine wit my bro..its just so nice to have tht bonding...
as arrvd...we parked in capsqre.. a new mall whch i aonly go 4 subway n movies..the advertisement on clearence sale was never removed..
it was actually notice by sarah..lol
try to watch my name is khan..bt smhw its fully booked..not fated..
then we whn to look 4 suit 4 my sis...
now comes the third dose..
my mum surprisingly said yes 4 my choice of suit...it was sweet..
felt like crying..bt i didnt..
so..i gt mine n my sis got hers..

however...the SIDE EFFECT...
i had a fight with the stupid salesman in hanifa textile..he actually scolded me 4 drinking b4 paying.. it was horrible...he made it as if im going to steal it..damm,,
he got his horrible injection from me..the prescription are..kutta kamina..harami..then he kept quite..damm tht guy...pity the owner of tht place..they shld change the salesman honestly..

however..not scared of the side effect.. i took another dose
form my sis..
she bought 4 me a pair of shoe 4 mooting...it was not tht nice..bt i luv it..bcause it from her..

thus the side effect again...
i wantd to getmyself one subway meal 4 dinner..unexpectedly it was closed..i felt like shouting my heart out..hish..it was just not my luck...

i decided to stop dosage and sign up for this thing...
nw i just cant stop typing..
its just like wanting so say everythng rite nw..

hope its not the SIDE EFFECT..
i bettr get some rest now..

my sad starting

life was just so miserable this few day..
heard things that i should not have heard..
saw things that i should not have seen..
thought me alot about life..
some may just call u for free ticket..
some might call u for favor..
at one point in life u just knew that it was not u that they want its ur package...its just so sad..
Allah is just so fair..i accept the fact that im being tested wholly..
cannot deny the fact that ive gave up life,,
STILL
Allah shows me the true meaning of life..
is not to give up..
life must go on..
thank u to Nana & Sarah for the support..
sarah was rite at the point where she said never look down upon urself and never let other do the same...lov ur self more then other..
thats the hard part...
im not strong..
still...
ALLAH
gave me family and fren that guide me and help me find my path...
after all its all abt life..